I never felt alone, didn't I?
I'm proud to be single and not caring about someone at all... since I don't know what to do if I had a someone...
I have crushes here and there... but suddenly they became my ideal big brother type...
Through endless seminars and other social studies I have gone through I know what kind of love that is...
but I never felt it. None. Nada. Cinch.
I'm not a prune. I'm not bitter from some past relationship that didn't work out, even though I have one.
I just don't think I fell or grew in love with someone.
Maybe its because of my defense mechanism, I never let everyone in, never trusted someone fully, since I expect everyone to disappoint me sooner or later.
I am still pessimistic, one of my best qualities, including paranoia.
So here I am always the friend, never the girlfriend. ^-^
I don't think I'm gonna fall in love that easily.... someone has to pull me down first.
