So serene so empty... I don't even know what I'm feeling right know...
If my inner voice shouts the question "What's going on?" in my head in would just echo trough the vast darkness...
I don't know... My life is... sort of... mechanic this days no point... just do the present and the first priorities...
Monday-Saturday.... student duties... meet with friends after class or in my break time...
Sunday... family duties and again student duties...
It's so empty... maybe its because of my limited internet time... maybe its my cellphone that I ignore on Sundays... or my broken cell site that I refused to use my globe sim anymore, or my limited sun sim contact numbers, or my unused smart sim...
or maybe its just me... I'm just mechanic right now... No I do not feel like a marionette with strings attached to my hands or feet forced to do what it was told...
I feel like an android progammed to react with the controlled conditions around me... working to reach the goal ahead but not enjoying the journey ort the simple and plain process of what I do...
O_O Is the peer pressure going to my head? DO I have other high expectations than this? I haven't reached my goal yet and here I am questionning the steps I make...
Maybe I needed more determination and to be a little bit industrious than I was before. (I do procrastinate sometime...)
Or do I need a break? ...
Well Summer is near I just have to work hard a lot before the break... I don't want to have Summer School again...
*sighs*
Work it ~ Daft Punk
